Right who am I kidding... but at least I have my Che-Ez fer now... =p 

Che-eZ and I... it doesnt do well in low light but captures interesting stuff in the day... 

Melancholy Geri 

Watching Robots (bought from Carrefour for $1) with his mouth wide open... lol

Captured on Che-eZ camera... lomo-ish feeling cam 

Wave like cloud... think 903 would have done a better job.. lol oh well... sighs 

 

Nature walk wif Kae... 

Doesnt look like he is in Singapore right? 

 

Kae finds a treasure... 

Beauty in simple things that we tend to overlook... 

Windflowers... wishing flowers... 

Kae yesterday and today...

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Ian sent me his latest photo and I tot ... wah very kwon sang woo... but then usually he reminds me of Lee Byung Hun from some angles. Of coz ian doesnt look exactly like them lah but haha... abit also not bad right? =)

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And it never ends... old poems again and again... dun be sick of them ok? haha

HAHAHAHA... this sums me up in so many words... written more than 3 years ago.

Some Random Thoughts and nonsense... lol

There are no wrong answers or right answers. An answer is a good one when it is honest. Even if that means silence , it is better than a promise that crashes and roars but fades away into a painful emptiness that screams louder than a siren.

Don't promise eternity. Don't promise what you can't do. Don't promise the impossible. Just promise what you can fulfill.

And when you dunno what to do, what to say... just hold me close and kiss my fears away...

I am like a piece of glass that has been shattered so many times.. brittle and lost.

When I love someone... I love fully because that is what I do. I don't need appreciation all the time but sometimes do try to give some acknowledgement it makes me feel happy so do be generous with it.

I CAN COOK... ask all the people i cooked for and who ate my food and loved it.

When I cry it is because everything I've held back inside me needs to pour forth... and I like to be near water when I am really in serious tots or tears because the sound of water calms me down.

I love to watch the Sunrise and Sunset... I love to walk in the rain... To lie beneath shooting stars and to make love and not fuck. I ONLY make love.

Nothing is permanent and all is transcient. If you lose it move on. If you win it good for you but prepare for when you lose it. Never be so defensive that you can't leave your ego behind & be humble. Something i must master.

Beauty is nothing without a happy soul and behind every smile lies so many tears and heartache.

I am not beautiful or perfect. I have the spare tyre and the dark eye rings but I am me and no one can replace me ever.

I drink TOO little water than needed.

I sleep TOO much than I should.

I live TOO little because I can't tho I want to.

I love so much that it hurts =)

-- Copyright Geraldine Tan Xiu-Yin

And some old poems

A Little Faith

You came along
Sang me a song
Took my heart home with you
Though I mean nothing at all
You touched my heart
I told you my secret name
I gave you a part of me
Even though I knew it would be a dead end

Give me a little faith in myself
When the night begins to fall
When the darkness threatens
To overpower it all

Give me a little faith in myself
I dun ask for your love
Just a kind gesture a kind word
You don't know how I hurt

You brightened my life
I forgot my nightmares
Even if that was for a second
I wished that the moment would never end
You made me fly made me fall
Oh God I've hit another wall
When will this pain disappear?
If only I could conquer one last fear

Give me a little faith in myself
When the night begins to fall
When the darkness threatens
To overpower it all

Give me a little faith in myself
I dun ask for your love
Just a kind gesture a kind word
You don't know how I hurt

I don't know who I am anymore
I try very hard but it backfires on me
I tried to stand on my own to stand tall
But I can't see anymore good in me...

- Copyright Geraldine Tan Xiu-Yin

Sometimes I wish...

That I had not kissed you.
That I had not told you.
That I had not missed you.
That I had not cried for you.
That I had not met you.
That I had not fallen in love with you...
but because I have, I honestly love you.

Sometimes I wish you would say a kind word....
that you had not changed overnight,
that you would even ask if I feel ok (whn I'm sick),
that you'd stop being so cold,
that you'd hold me close hold me tight...
but even if you don't I still am such a fool for you...

- Copyright Geraldine Tan Xiu-Yin

Acting cute today with my double ponytails...

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Aircon and Heater... the 2 babes.

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Charm bought me a rose! I bought her a top! Hahaha we are psychics... buy w.o telling each other. Then the guys were like... eh y u all buy presents for each other? birthday ah? hahaha.

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Tired ouf from all that Chinese he attempted hahaha.

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Haha Kae asked for some "homework"... so I wrote the Chinese names of the animals and gave him boxes to draw the animal corresponding to the word and to write the English name of the animal out. He did pretty well. And then he had some fun attempting to write Chinese words. This is his first attempt... drawing a pig... it aint' Mcdull the cute Cantonese pig but it is kawaii enuf!

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Quack Quack and not too bad eh?

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Kae drew this horse... =)

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His picture of a jumping goat haha...

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I like his picture of the chicken so cute!

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Kae's try at writing the word dog or gou in mandarin. Not bad. His first attempt is the biggest one and the one in the box is his second try. :p Good tries lah... not right but not too bad hehe.

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Cat or mao by Kae.... lol his 2 attempts. He even drew in whiskers in an artistic attempt hahahahaha.

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Kae tries his best to write bird or niao... not bad his two attempts. =)

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Kae attempts to write I or wo. the one under the date 22/5 is the nicest and he did it all on his own.... not a bad attempt eh? The first attemtp was quite screwy though. The nice ones in black and above the lovely attempt by him are by me.

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Kae attempts the word horse or ma. The one of the left and the one above the tick are his first and second attempts. The one in black ink and right on top are my samples for him to follow lol.

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To the cinema we go... Heigho heigho heigho!!

Kae and I on our way to the cinema @ Junction 8. I booked the tickets earlier on my com...Thank God I did so coz it was so full! Tickets were all run out by the time we got there for a few shows for Over The Hedge. Also, he got the LAST booster seat. Yes. I got Kae his own seat coz I was afraid he might need a ticket to get in. Expensive but seeing the joy on his face was really worth it!

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Kae and I at the cinema watching Over The Hedge... he loved it. His favorite bit was the everything slowed down part haha... go watch the show to know wat he's toking abt. AND please stay right to the end. The show really ends only after the credits end their run. Haha.

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Kae opens his gift- Spencer the Train

Kae just got his last bday gift of the year from Ling Hooi and Eric. =D

All gaffer taped up, he kept asking me how to open it at first. Then, he did so quite patiently. I only had to help a little bit.

He loved it and we almost didnt make it for the show coz he was so engrossed with it. =D

Aircon and Heater... Charm and Geri... so different and yet so alike... I thank God for U... =)

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The dinner then dessert crowd... My Aircon (Charmaine), Lou Dao Ling Hooi (who got mini-Punked by us), Ottosan Aaron (who held my phone to take this pic)

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Conspiracy Theory... Charm and I were at TIMES and we couldnt resist getting for Ling Hooi some cool car signs. We stealthily stuck them on his window at the back whilst he was giving us a lift back.

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That Kazhuak Dance by the K2s

The cheena techno version of Dragosta Din Tei... the kids in K2 dance to this and are so adorable! I just love kids... comes in 2 parts(coz someone called halfway). Kae loves this segment.

Prize Giving Ceremony

Kae receives his Sports Day Prize. They all got the same thing (velcro dartboard). The teachers wanted to teach them the lesson that winning isn't everything as well as that teamwork + participation + having fun is more important. Cool! (Oh ya ... notice the Amazon girl in his class who is a head taller than he. Poor Kae was so small sized next to some of the other kids hehe. But dun worry... boys grow slowly but surely hehehehe. I claim that in Jesus' name for Kae! )

Kae's race item for Sports Day =)

A thought, a prayer of thanks...

I feel so blessed whenever I look at kaelen or think of Ian...

My life felt emptier before God graced me with my precious blessing and my little sonshine.

Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I had taken the different paths that I had turned away from and I know I dun regret my journey one bit.

Kae has been such a wonderful son to have so far. Even when he talks in his sleep at nite or pees on our bed and wakes me up haha... he is my littl bao bei. I thank God for thinking me worthy to be the mother of this precocious kid who reminds me so much of Calvin from Calvin and Hobbes.

And haha Ian reminds me a bit of the Dad in that comic too hehe... A lot actually. Ian spouts similar funny theories to Kae sometimes. Ian is so much a part of me that I'd be lost without him. He is the warmth in the cold, the umbrella in the rain, the giver of encouragement when I am down... my spiritual partner in our journey to knowing God more, loving Christ more... My lighthouse in the dark stormy sea of Life... my precious precious blessing... worth more than silver or gold or any precious stones or money.

These 2 guys... big and little... teach me how to love more, to forgive more, to understand better and really touch my life every single day.

I thank God for them every day, every single moment of my humble little life.

Odd Job Geri

Photo restoration work that I am doing... the restored part (there is more... but for now this is a part of it), the ORIGINAL way it came to me... the colour restored stage with green specs of mould all over.... I basically REPAINT the whole photo... ie the shading, etc all are painstakingly repainted back as there is no other way of restoring... underquoted and kinda regret it now giggles...

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The last bit of Kae's Geography lesson that I forgot to upload earlier...

Trust me it is worth the watch haha... farnie kid lor... hahaha

Spooky! If U know me U will know Y it spooks me haha


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